#16

You are going to think I’m crazy…if you don’t already.  But I can’t even write about anything other than Red Bull today, because it is the only thing on my mind.  Sadly, not kidding.  Many years ago I tried Red Bull and thought it was disgusting.  Then about a year later I was in Dallas in the dead of summer.  It was about 120 degrees and HUMID.  I found myself in a van with NO air conditioning and literally felt like I was going to die.  We kept the windows open but the blowing air felt like a hair dryer.  The only thing in the cooler was Red Bull on ice and I drank 8 over the course of a few hours.  Ever since then I have been hooked.  When I say hooked… I mean addicted.  Like a crack addict.  I have single handedly funded that company I am sure of it!

I stopped both times being pregnant and counted down the days until my babies would wean from breast feeding so I could start back up again.  Gross, I know!  So I decided the other day I needed to quit.  I have been drinking about 5 a day (about $10 a day!  I’d be better off smoking!) .  I wake up and crack a cold one the moment I wake up!

Yesterday was my first day of NO Red Bull.  I went out with my mom to keep myself busy.  People have joked that Red Bull can’t be an addiction and that I am just being funny.  I wish I was because yesterday felt like hell.  I was like a drug addict the first day of rehab.  I was so sick I couldn’t drive.  I couldn’t see straight and my head felt like it was going to pop off.  I was nauseous and couldn’t stop shaking!!  I was mad at the world and could not function.  I went to bed at 9pm.  Which is crazy for me.  I just couldn’t handle it anymore.

I woke up this morning shaking and couldn’t deal.  I drank one at 1pm and gave myself the excuse of “I will taper off”…  So basically I’m a failure….  I’m really going to try to keep it at just 1 today…AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.  This is ridiculous.

Any pointers?